This weekend was a very full one for me. It's been like that a lot lately and I'm still trying to get a hold on the fact that my life is 100% completely different than it was a year ago.
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| Me in front of Gianni Versace's house, February 2011 |
Last February, my friends and I went on a cruise to the Bahamas. I had fun, but I wasn't 100% happy the entire time. I was uncomfortable in my bathing suit, and my legs got chaffed from walking. Midway through the trip I didn't want to do anything but stay in my room and eat my anger away. I actually did that the 3rd night there.
Sad, I know.
That trip was in the middle of a time period where I was pretty much unhappy with myself. I simply didn't want to go out in public anymore, and I rarely did for things other than work. Only when my friends would drag me out would I present myself, this trip included.
Fast forward 12 months.....
I was talking with my Jenny consultant Michelle, and I told her how I feel like I've been reborn and given a second chance at enjoying the life I was given. I am doing and experiencing things I either wouldn't or couldn't in the past because of my size and/or self esteem.
I go out almost every weekend. I dance, drink a little, and have a good time. I truly enjoy myself and whoever I'm with. And the time I spend worrying about how I look has dropped 1000%. I'm just confident that I look good and that's that.
I'm just seeing the world through a whole new pair of eyes, you know? I was never really into dating in the past (I could count all my boyfriends on one hand), and now I'm going on dates, meeting new people, and it's fun.
I've never had a Valentine before, so I wonder if that'll change this year (it's in two days, I kinda doubt it lol).
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