The Not-So-Dreaded Fitting

So this past weekend, my BFF/Bride-to-be scheduled a search/fitting for all the bridesmaid dresses.

I know, time flies right?

So around mid summer last year we were in a bridal boutique looking for her dress, and we saw that they also happened to have bridesmaid dresses. So she wanted me to try some on just to get a feel of what she wanted for us. The sizes went all the way up to 16 (I was a nice 18 at that time), so most dresses couldn't even get up my thighs, let alone zip up. So we decided to save the try-ons for a few months later, which brings us to the present.

We all (the Bride, Bridesmaids, and Myself) saw this movie together lol

Now out of all the bridesmaids (theres 5 of us) only 2 people, myself included, are thick women. I'm the thickest. SO even though I've lost so much, I initially feared that it wouldn't be enough, and nothing would look good on me. Again.

Well I was wrong.

Once we started trying dresses on, I was giddy as hell inside when I realized that the dresses could go all the way up and partially zip up. Made my day :-)

In the end we picked our dresses (can't wait to wear them for the big day!) and we ALL look fab in them. Of course my dress is a little different because I'm the MOH (maid of honor) and my BBF bride wants me to stand out. In the past I would have hated to be the one to stand out, but for the first time in a long time it's something that I'm excited about.

My First Video!!

Ok, so it's a little long, and I was one glass of wine in....but you get the point ;-)

Here's me on my take on the Jenny Craig program so far!!

A Whole New World

So weighed in yesterday, lost 1lb! Yayyyy!!!

This weekend was a very full one for me. It's been like that a lot lately and I'm still trying to get a hold on the fact that my life is 100% completely different than it was a year ago.

Me in front of Gianni Versace's house, February 2011

Last February, my friends and I went on a cruise to the Bahamas. I had fun, but I wasn't 100% happy the entire time. I was uncomfortable in my bathing suit, and my legs got chaffed from walking. Midway through the trip I didn't want to do anything but stay in my room and eat my anger away. I actually did that the 3rd night there.

Sad, I know.

That trip was in the middle of a time period where I was pretty much unhappy with myself. I simply didn't want to go out in public anymore, and I rarely did for things other than work. Only when my friends would drag me out would I present myself, this trip included.

Fast forward 12 months.....

I was talking with my Jenny consultant Michelle, and I told her how I feel like I've been reborn and given a second chance at enjoying the life I was given. I am doing and experiencing things I either wouldn't or couldn't in the past because of my size and/or self esteem.

I go out almost every weekend. I dance, drink a little, and have a good time. I truly enjoy myself and whoever I'm with. And the time I spend worrying about how I look has dropped 1000%. I'm just confident that I look good and that's that.

I'm just seeing the world through a whole new pair of eyes, you know? I was never really into dating in the past (I could count all my boyfriends on one hand), and now I'm going on dates, meeting new people, and it's fun.

I've never had a Valentine before, so I wonder if that'll change this year (it's in two days, I kinda doubt it lol).

Looking Back

Every now and then I feel tempted to eat something not program appropriate. I'm only human. This past sunday was no exception.

Now every Super Bowl Sunday (SBS) for the last few years, my family and I go to Dave and Busters because my mom enters into a pool, they rent out the billiards section and provide free food and drinks. THey also have their own cash bar, which is also nice. I've loved SBS for the last few years because of this....

...and I dreaded it this year because of it.

I initially planned on sneaking some Jenny approved food in, but then changed my mind because I figured it wasn't that serious. I could probably do what I did on the major holidays and make a small plate of everything. But then I realized what I'd be making a small plate of:

pizza bites
chicken tenders
mini BBQ ribs
hot wings
nachos

None of these things were good options, except maybe for the wings because they weren't breaded. SO I was essentially stuck with these options, unless I ordered from the D & B menu, which isn't better either. I chose to have 3 hot wings, a mini rib, and a pizza bite. and felt like crap afterwards.

Luckily for me I didn't eat my jenny snack just in case something like this came up, that way I didn't just demolish my calorie count. I'm sure I went over (I also had 2 Bud Lights), but I've been trying to counteract it all week by staying on top of my water and exercise.

So in times like these I like to look back in my old pictures to get a boost of motivation and a reminder of why I need to stick to the program and stay the course. This morning I put on a shirt that I haven't worn for a while. I remembered I had a picture with this shirt in my laptop and decided to take a trip down memory lane...

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaand now I'm back on track lol. I wish I could show you guys this staff picture I took with this shirt. The camera guy stuck me dead center and facing front. I was a big cheetah print space in the middle of all these people...I hated that picture. Now I can wear this shirt as a dress with some leggings.

I feel better now.